Consumed with the thoughts & actions of another. Isn’t that what we truly want? To merge with this person in a way that takes us completely out of this world. Our Heart Chakra WIDE OPEN. Bliss. Pure Bliss. This is what we seek.
And yet, there are those who will not open to it. I am wondering. Are they afraid of this consuming feeling? Do they fear a loss of control? How sad! They do not yet know that this type of consummation is what brings total clarity of the mind and a cleansing of the soul of the everyday world. To me, this is what Tantra is really about! It is energizing and exhilarating! It is focus on what is truly important in life and the determination to bring into fruition all that one desires. It is meditation and action at the same time. It is truly being in the moment and completely present.
I have a lover who seems to fear this and he stays away from me far too much. So much that I fear our connection is ending. I am so sad that he fears this and yet I can fully understand it. It is a bit scary to those who have never experienced the total consummation of a Tantric experience. Oh yes, we have flirted with it a bit. However, he always pulls back when we begin to go deeper. I have tried to get him to speak of it, but he brushes me off as though it is not an important matter. He just doesn’t know what will come out of this connection! I don’t know how to get him to let down those walls and just TRUST ME.
Trust. A very fragile thing for us, is it not? I have had to teach myself to trust. I still struggle with it, but one day I Will conquer that demon. In the meantime, I will accept his distrust and help him to understand that I have no intentions of hurting him or betraying his trust in me.
I will sit in meditation today and I set forth the intention to draw to me the lover who is as willing to be consumed by love as I am, the one who knows the art of Sacred Sex. He is already here. I simply need to open my eyes to see him. Yes, my heart is a place of prayer.
~It’s beautiful when you find someone who is in love with all of you.
Someone who wants to undress your mind and make love to your thoughts.
Someone who wants to watch you slowly take down all the walls
you’ve built up around your heart and let them inside.~